... Oh, and Tinie Tempah is alright I guess ... *shrug*
November 30, 2010
Now Playing: SHM ft. Tinie Tempah - Miami 2 Ibiza
... Oh, and Tinie Tempah is alright I guess ... *shrug*
November 23, 2010
The Outfit Today: Black & The New Black.
I know, I know, I pose the same in every photo. I never claimed to be a model lol. Jeniese and I were talking, via Twitter, about our disgusting leopard print addiction. We ultimately came to the conclusion that leopard print is the new black. Don't argue or fight it, just embrace the excuse to buy leopard printed things! ANYWAYS, this is what I wore out today.
Harem Pants & Jacket Evans | Leopard Print Cardi Zellers | Bag & Hat H&M | Blowfish Flats BarefootTess
I'm deathly bored with my wardrobe. Everything is black or beige. I have made a vow to not buy anything black unless it is a statement piece I can wear for the next couple decades. The black section of my closet (the right half of it) is just disgusting!
I'm deathly bored with my wardrobe. Everything is black or beige. I have made a vow to not buy anything black unless it is a statement piece I can wear for the next couple decades. The black section of my closet (the right half of it) is just disgusting!
November 18, 2010
The Train Of Birthday Thought & Lessons Learned
Usually this is a post that is written on New Years Eve. A post about how far we've come and the growth we still need from ourselves as people. My reflection process, unlike most, starts every year on this day, my birthday. Today is my nineteenth birthday. Instead of celebrating, I find myself reflecting on birthdays past.
Before I went to bed, my mother said something to me that kept me up all night. "No matter what age, you will always be my little girl." I laughed and gave her a hug while she wished me a happy early birthday. I starting thinking about how birthdays just arn't the same for me now that I'm old and on the brink of death... Okay so fine, I'm totally being over dramatic about this, STAY with me now!
When you're young, your birthday is a big deal. The cake is already made, the presents are already warped and you think nothing of the process it took to bring that all together. Every year, I woke up to my cake, a card, a present and breakfast. Yesterday while in the grocery store with my mom, she turned around and asked me "What kind of cake would you like tomorrow?" I was crushed! She had never asked me what kind of cake I wanted, she always knew! Then, it hit me. I'd be waking up to make my breakfast alone, and heading to work where no one really cares about my birthday... Wait what? THIS IS DEPRESSING! Hold the phone so that I can bask in this moment for a second:
(I was cute when I was 1, I HAD to post it, i'm sorry!)
My mom went through absolute hell and back to throw me parties and bake the most extravagant cake that she could construct with her own two hands. For my 9th birthday, I wanted a three tier cake with baby pink frosting. What I failed to take into account was that my mother was in excruciating pain because she had developed a herniated disc in her lower back. This disc was now pinching the nerves and causing severe back spasms. She literally cried into my cake while icing it, stood hunched over this cake like it was a masterpiece (which it was) still trying to perfect every tier. While 20 people gathered to sing me happy birthday, my mother carried out the cake without a single tear, sign of pain or a complaint to be heard.
How is it that my mother stood there with a smile on her face and without a single sign of sadness or pain, and I'm sitting here complaining about not waking up to a present and freaking BREAKFAST? What is wrong with this picture... What is wrong with ME? I shouldn't be bitching over my birthday not being what it used to. I'm going to be happy that I had a mother who went through so much trouble to make my birthdays something I will never forget. A mother who has taught me valuable lessons about self growth and respect. A mother who simply asked me what kind of cake I wanted because her little girl has changed over the years and didn't want a basic chocolate cake but now wanted a lemon one.
My 4th & 6th Birthday (please take in the bear cake... My mom was amazing!)
I am grateful that I have another year to live. Grateful that my mother is still as amazing as ever, and grateful that I'm now nineteen! Not a single complaint, tear or frown in sight.
I took a huge pointer from Amelia, and pulled myself out of this mini birthday/age depression. I took the time to make a list of things that I've learned (this year) and a list of things that I've come to love.
Lessons Learned
1. I am a better person then I was last year. No I haven't changed, people don't change. They simply choose how they want to be seen, I have done just that. I let emotion out when needed instead of harboring it. I am more bold and outspoken. I don't lie, cheat, steal my way into things like I've done in the past. I stopped letting others run my life and realized that I am truly an amazing person: I should let people get to know me and if they don't want to, that is fine too!
2. I do not "date" and I don't like the term "dating." Do people even go on "dates" anymore? Anyways, I haven't been in a relationship for over a year, and to be honest I haven't really thought much about trying to get into one. I have a few amazing guy friends and some guys who I'm sure wouldn't mind "dating" me, but i haven't thought about it at all. You always here people say "when it's meant to happen, it will happen" but I'm not even looking for it to happen lmao, I'm kind of in an asexual space right now!
3. Surround yourself with people who aim higher then expected. Who are motivated and passionate about what they do. It will drive you to reach your dreams. My friend is going to be a doctor, gynecologist to be exact. I have no doubt in my mind she will do it. I'm going to be a designer, it will expand online and become successful. I have no doubt that I will achieve this because I refuse to be the unsuccessful friend out of the bunch and I will not let my dream die!
4. I cannot personally change people because people don't change themselves. No matter how much you'd like to get rid of that one trait someone has, that annoys you to your very core, you cannot change them! They will always be that person more or less, and all you can do it learn to accept it or respect it and move on. The person I was at 16 is pretty much me for the rest of life no matter how much I'd like to deny it lol.
5. I dress for myself, and myself only. No one in their right mind would wear what I put on my body sometimes. I'm not claiming to be unique or different, I'm just dressing for me. Cropped pants in the winter with chunky mens socks, a bill Crosby sweater & a huge fur hat?... I get some awkward looks on the bus, let me tell you! No one wants to bang the chick who looks like a fox-bird-hat wearing, tall-giraffe-esq, Bill-Crosby looking hybrid but I wear it with confidence, because I wore it for me and I enjoy the way things look on my body.
Things I Love
1. BEING A FREAKING RED HEAD! I like it a little too much... Like seriously, when does the narcissism stop, does anyone know?
2. Hipster backgrounds I don't know what it is but I love them. My favorite site to get them from is Totally Severe. My computer, phone, twitter and blog backgrounds are all from there lol.
3. Being able to buy booze legally. Yes I went and bought booze the morning of my 19th birthday, don't you dare judge me! I've bought booze before without being carded but there is something very grown up feeling about going into a liquor store, having to whip out your ID to prove you can legally drink what you're buying, and coming out with bottles of booze. Sounds stupid but yeah... LOL
4. Cheese. My mom bought this new mozzarella cheese called "mozzarellaisima" and oh sweet Jesus is this stuff good. I have melted cheese over just about everything in my house that can be eaten with cheese, and some combination's that I don't recommend.
5. Rihanna She is fabulous. I love her style, I'm loving the new album. I'm not so in love with her live performance, but I cannot deny my love for her songs. I'm not ashamed or proud of it, I just love everything about her.
Before I went to bed, my mother said something to me that kept me up all night. "No matter what age, you will always be my little girl." I laughed and gave her a hug while she wished me a happy early birthday. I starting thinking about how birthdays just arn't the same for me now that I'm old and on the brink of death... Okay so fine, I'm totally being over dramatic about this, STAY with me now!
When you're young, your birthday is a big deal. The cake is already made, the presents are already warped and you think nothing of the process it took to bring that all together. Every year, I woke up to my cake, a card, a present and breakfast. Yesterday while in the grocery store with my mom, she turned around and asked me "What kind of cake would you like tomorrow?" I was crushed! She had never asked me what kind of cake I wanted, she always knew! Then, it hit me. I'd be waking up to make my breakfast alone, and heading to work where no one really cares about my birthday... Wait what? THIS IS DEPRESSING! Hold the phone so that I can bask in this moment for a second:
My mom went through absolute hell and back to throw me parties and bake the most extravagant cake that she could construct with her own two hands. For my 9th birthday, I wanted a three tier cake with baby pink frosting. What I failed to take into account was that my mother was in excruciating pain because she had developed a herniated disc in her lower back. This disc was now pinching the nerves and causing severe back spasms. She literally cried into my cake while icing it, stood hunched over this cake like it was a masterpiece (which it was) still trying to perfect every tier. While 20 people gathered to sing me happy birthday, my mother carried out the cake without a single tear, sign of pain or a complaint to be heard.
How is it that my mother stood there with a smile on her face and without a single sign of sadness or pain, and I'm sitting here complaining about not waking up to a present and freaking BREAKFAST? What is wrong with this picture... What is wrong with ME? I shouldn't be bitching over my birthday not being what it used to. I'm going to be happy that I had a mother who went through so much trouble to make my birthdays something I will never forget. A mother who has taught me valuable lessons about self growth and respect. A mother who simply asked me what kind of cake I wanted because her little girl has changed over the years and didn't want a basic chocolate cake but now wanted a lemon one.
I am grateful that I have another year to live. Grateful that my mother is still as amazing as ever, and grateful that I'm now nineteen! Not a single complaint, tear or frown in sight.
I took a huge pointer from Amelia, and pulled myself out of this mini birthday/age depression. I took the time to make a list of things that I've learned (this year) and a list of things that I've come to love.
1. I am a better person then I was last year. No I haven't changed, people don't change. They simply choose how they want to be seen, I have done just that. I let emotion out when needed instead of harboring it. I am more bold and outspoken. I don't lie, cheat, steal my way into things like I've done in the past. I stopped letting others run my life and realized that I am truly an amazing person: I should let people get to know me and if they don't want to, that is fine too!
2. I do not "date" and I don't like the term "dating." Do people even go on "dates" anymore? Anyways, I haven't been in a relationship for over a year, and to be honest I haven't really thought much about trying to get into one. I have a few amazing guy friends and some guys who I'm sure wouldn't mind "dating" me, but i haven't thought about it at all. You always here people say "when it's meant to happen, it will happen" but I'm not even looking for it to happen lmao, I'm kind of in an asexual space right now!
3. Surround yourself with people who aim higher then expected. Who are motivated and passionate about what they do. It will drive you to reach your dreams. My friend is going to be a doctor, gynecologist to be exact. I have no doubt in my mind she will do it. I'm going to be a designer, it will expand online and become successful. I have no doubt that I will achieve this because I refuse to be the unsuccessful friend out of the bunch and I will not let my dream die!
4. I cannot personally change people because people don't change themselves. No matter how much you'd like to get rid of that one trait someone has, that annoys you to your very core, you cannot change them! They will always be that person more or less, and all you can do it learn to accept it or respect it and move on. The person I was at 16 is pretty much me for the rest of life no matter how much I'd like to deny it lol.
5. I dress for myself, and myself only. No one in their right mind would wear what I put on my body sometimes. I'm not claiming to be unique or different, I'm just dressing for me. Cropped pants in the winter with chunky mens socks, a bill Crosby sweater & a huge fur hat?... I get some awkward looks on the bus, let me tell you! No one wants to bang the chick who looks like a fox-bird-hat wearing, tall-giraffe-esq, Bill-Crosby looking hybrid but I wear it with confidence, because I wore it for me and I enjoy the way things look on my body.
1. BEING A FREAKING RED HEAD! I like it a little too much... Like seriously, when does the narcissism stop, does anyone know?
2. Hipster backgrounds I don't know what it is but I love them. My favorite site to get them from is Totally Severe. My computer, phone, twitter and blog backgrounds are all from there lol.
3. Being able to buy booze legally. Yes I went and bought booze the morning of my 19th birthday, don't you dare judge me! I've bought booze before without being carded but there is something very grown up feeling about going into a liquor store, having to whip out your ID to prove you can legally drink what you're buying, and coming out with bottles of booze. Sounds stupid but yeah... LOL
4. Cheese. My mom bought this new mozzarella cheese called "mozzarellaisima" and oh sweet Jesus is this stuff good. I have melted cheese over just about everything in my house that can be eaten with cheese, and some combination's that I don't recommend.
5. Rihanna She is fabulous. I love her style, I'm loving the new album. I'm not so in love with her live performance, but I cannot deny my love for her songs. I'm not ashamed or proud of it, I just love everything about her.
November 15, 2010
The Outfit Today: Whats Black, Red & Tan All Over?
The answer would be me, in this outfit, with my new hair color! For years I wanted to be a redhead and this weekend I just did it it; Dyed my hair bright red. I originally wanted it brighter but my stylist fought me about further damaging my hair & looking like a cabbage patch doll. What do you guys think? I'm still getting used to it, every time I walk past a mirror, I jump LOL.
Ive been getting stares and whispers from passers by, but I could honestly care less. I am in love my new hair, I feel extra cheeky walking down the street with a huge bush of bright red hair! Its like the cherry on top of my personality... literally.
Skirt Faith21 | Sheer Top Zellers | Belt OldNavy | Bag Zara | Flats BarefootTess | Scarf Stoneridge | Blazer Thrifted
I wore my sheer top with my favorite lace patterned bra, this bodycon skirt I picked up from the plus sized section of forever21 but never really got the chance to wear, and paired it with this blazer I found at Value Village for $7. I eventually want to add some cut out detailing to the back of the blazer, but haven't gotten around to it just yet.
I think Ive just about worn these flats to death, and then dragged them through hell; so I ordered a new pair of black, pointed toe flats, along with some booties that hopefully give me more options when it comes to wearing short skirts for winter. This circle scarf is also my new best friend, I need to invest in a couple, more colorful ones to brighten up my dull wardrobe.
Ive been getting stares and whispers from passers by, but I could honestly care less. I am in love my new hair, I feel extra cheeky walking down the street with a huge bush of bright red hair! Its like the cherry on top of my personality... literally.
I wore my sheer top with my favorite lace patterned bra, this bodycon skirt I picked up from the plus sized section of forever21 but never really got the chance to wear, and paired it with this blazer I found at Value Village for $7. I eventually want to add some cut out detailing to the back of the blazer, but haven't gotten around to it just yet.
I think Ive just about worn these flats to death, and then dragged them through hell; so I ordered a new pair of black, pointed toe flats, along with some booties that hopefully give me more options when it comes to wearing short skirts for winter. This circle scarf is also my new best friend, I need to invest in a couple, more colorful ones to brighten up my dull wardrobe.
November 10, 2010
November Wishlist
If you follow me on twitter, you've heard the good news. I'm officially a working woman again *screams & cheers* and lets be honest, we all know where my paycheck is heading... Straight to the sale section on just about every clothing website! I'm still fond of boring beige's & tans. Faux fur is also another personal obsession that is quickly growing this fall, and I find myself wanting a closet filled with dressy pieces. I have way to many casual clothes already, my closet could use some structure and class these days. This winter, I'm focusing on adding more party dresses, trousers and trying to gain a more sophisticated look by the time spring rolls around. These are some of the things at the top of my list.
| 1. $81 - Dorothy Perkins Black Embellished Neck Dress 2. $31 - ASOS Leather Driver Perforated Gloves 3. $121 - Evans Leopard Faux Fur Coat 4. $35 - Style Hurricane Feathered Ear Cuff 5. $105 - Dorothy Perkins Grey Buckle Front Cape 6. $56 - Evans Leopard Print Panel Basque 7. $12 - Essie Van D'go Nailpolish 8. $9.80 - Forever21 3-Buckle Leatherette Belt 9. $45 - Aldo Accessory CYPHERT handbag 10. $60 - Barefoottess.com Blowfish Booties | 11. $80 - Dorothy Perkins Grey Studded Fur Lined Gilet 12. $48 - Evans Black Satin Panel Body Suit 13. $62 - ASOS Strap Lock Day Bag 14. $14 - Evans Tear Drop Earrings 15. $40 - Evans Charcoal Utility Joggers 16. $56 - Evans Studded Longline Shirt 17. $180 - Barefoottess.com Jeffrey Campbell Loggins 18. $10 - ASOS Double Crucifix Ring 19. $64 - Evans Belted Faux Fur Gilet |
November 6, 2010
Nail Obsession: Red & Black Half Moons
This took me FOR-ever to do (2 days to be precise) but I wanted to try it at least once, I think it came out pretty well despite my mishaps. I painted my nails completely red, and then painted over it with black, using some of those reinforcing paper repair rings cut in half. Those bad boys must really reinforce paper well, because when I went to peel them off my perfectly painted nails after a whole day of letting the red polish dry, they peeled off along with the reinforcers *sigh* You win some, you lose some lol. I used the tip of the red polish brush to fill in the gaps, and voila, half moon nails. I will have to buy some really cheap, dollar store quality stickers for next time, maybe it will turn out better.
